po-whems laddie! po-whems no less...

in which, inspired by the romantic longings and lustful rhymes of my good friend pat, i lay bare some bits 'n pieces of whimsy and nonsense from the crackly yellowed papers of my past...


bisho* (or: watching tv)

singing and chanting
(just like in church)
the women, the children
back-lit by the sun
then all of a sudden
the soundtrack is broken
with screaming and crying
and rifles and guns

instant confusion
eclipses the joy
as crowds run and scatter
and bodies fall down
a tear puffs the dust
as it chokes up the throat
blood on the barbs
(of a barbed wire fence)
drips off like syrup
turning sand into mud

a crow shrieks out loud
the shrill voice of despair
no, not despair
its probably joy
as a tv newsreader
(cold smile and a wig)
looks down at his script
its over now, dear, the rugby's up next
turn on the kettle
i'll make us some tea

* Bisho is a place in South Africa where a peaceful rally went bad.
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no!
surely not!?
but what was it then
if it was not?

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whispering fear
whispering soft
oh god what its fear of
i'll speak not again.

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focus on people
focus on her
focus on dreaming
focus on him
focus on eating
focus on drink
focusing focus
i keep twisting round
but somehow there's never
any focus on me

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he scribbled on my tummy
look what he did!
he scribbled in ink there
but nothing it said!

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a friend is
no lover
no sex has its way

a friend is
no lover
but sex holds its sway

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the hardness and throbbing
of blood in the veins
my cock feels like power
the power to change
it feels like its massive
harnessed by will
i follow its thrusting
until theres a thrill
but now its not standing
and i feel quite ill

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pornography
is photography
that lets me see
some fantasy
while sexually
arousing me

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say nothing to hurt
say nought to offend
what is it you say then
when nothing is said?

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to know what you're thinking
is something i want
i wish that i could
think some of your thoughts
but no matter how hard
i tried to see you
nothing was there
i saw only me

so what are your thoughts then
can you show them to me?
and do you think its wise
that i want to see?

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aha, she said,
its true you see
insanity is just the breadth
of life's intensity

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i say what i think
and i think what i like
but sometimes i know
i don't think what i say

i want to be this
i want to be that
but sometimes i just
want to be what i'm not

i know what i see
and i know what i think
but i think that theres more
and i want to see that

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tea before breakfast
(but dairy's no good)
tea without milk then
but
tea before ten

coffee at wake up
(caffeine they say)
but
coffee at wake up
will kick-start the day

but hold it one second
hold it right there!
is it not sugar
the drug that we seek?

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don quixote fought windmills
and i lie in bed
thinking the thoughts
that chase through my head
wanting to push
where resistance is dead
thats not too much fun though
so i jerk off instead

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i moved to
another city
to live there instead
to sever all ties
and start things anew
the trouble is
its me again
damn!
there is no easy way out

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psyche, so what?
what is it you say
what is it you want?
i want you to stop
please stop pouring it out

but no
it just comes
and it comes
and it comes
psyche, please
i asked you to stop

(from where it comes
i wish i knew
but somehow i know
its all that i've got)


mre
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